It's a boring week in June 2018. I am lurking thru wechat to practice my chingrish and to look for something to fuck potentially during my travels.
I hit upon this jap-pinoy boy who seems very eager to make a white friend and also sounds depressed. I throw him some affection to see if he bites. He does. I decide to fly over to Manila, Philippines as I am very excited and also I have wanted to go there for a while.
I arrive in Manila and he's at the door of my hotel (Sofitel) playing on his phone. We walk around the slot machines then go upstairs to my apartment. He seems impressed by the size of the suite room and the view. We sit down and I pour us a drink. He tells me his dreams about being a singer and the videogames he plays. I start caressing his back while talking and move my hand below to his ass. As I stroke his ass he tells me he has only been with girls before and is not comfortable with this. I reassure him its all ok because hes my friend then we go downstairs to eat at the all you can eat bar. i just get some crab legs and finish it with some dragonfruit as appetizer.he eats some mussels and drinks some soda then we go back downstairs.
As he falls asleep I get busy browsing 4chan then when he starts snoring (he is sleeping on his belly). I take his pants off slowly and wet my index finger with my mouth. I start slowly fingering his hairless little booty. He makes some noises and then asks me what I am doing whining. I panic and get on top of him and close his mouth.
This is where he starts trying to wiggle out. I hold his mouth tighter and leave my body on him (I was skinnier back then). He is now full screaming into my hand and just trashing around.
I get immensely aroused by this and try to shove my dick in his ass, which proves extremely difficult as he just wont stay in one place. I managed to get the tip in just a little which is met by more screaming into my hand followed by sobbing. I might have heard please into my hand but idk, now that I go through everything it's very spotty and also "foggy". Like how you see when you are about to pass out. Of course my anxiety was also running crazy at that moment.
I trust in and out slowly while wrapping my arms around him tighter and biting into his neck when he screams less than I like as his asshole opens up then I bust inside him. I pull out and slowly let go of his mouth while he sobs into the pillow. In this moment I feel strangely affectionate and loving to him, as if I feel some sort of love for making me feel so good, and also as if he belongs to me, like my partner, my whore. Me raping him and taking his body makes me feel like I am closer to him and we are one thing. He is mine now so I can love him.
I fall asleep fearing he will call the police or leave but when I wake up in the morning he's there. He tells me he ordered breakfast, and paid from the money I left on the table when we returned from the all you can eat.
He asks me why I did it. I told him that I really liked him and could not help myself. He tells me that he trusted me and thought I was his fried. I told him that hes still my friend and dear to me, its just that I also really like his body and cant stop myself. We move on from it and leave to walk on the Manila beach. After that I get him ice cream and we ride some spinning wheel i forgot what they are called in english. When the ride is over we go to the hotel and he cuddles up to me, which confuses me. Does he not hate me?
We spend the rest of the week, kissing, fucking, me teaching him how to give blowjobs and make me happy, and ending it with a kiss at the airport which has people turning and staring at us as philippines is a catholic conservative country.
He is still messaging me years later almost once a month, I am not responding anymore as I am trying to compartmentalize and erase my old life and past.
