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Tryptamine said: 

I didn't celebrate it.

Is CS visiting yet? 

Xena said: 

Nah.

I wear things pretty close to the vest, so I don't expect people to be mind readers.

I'm very quiet and standoffish irl. I'm usually very surprised when people buy things for me at all.

Doesn't that make the ones who were mind readers that much more impressive? 

Spatial Mind said: 

ddddddd said: 

For me it was my narrow minded materialistic family, loneliness and receiving garbage Christmas presents (no thought/effort put into, just money) 

 This is why I don't like Christmas or participate in it, people get miserable over what they got or didn't get or how the day went so easily. 

When you don't care or complain about it, you'll be better off.

I just enjoy watching someone's life become infected with whatever gift I gave them. 

Turncoat said: 

Tryptamine said: 

I didn't celebrate it.

Is CS visiting yet? 

She's getting a motel if she's still following the same plans as before. I pretty much ghosted everyone for the last week and a half because I had my own shit to deal with. I had also made the plans very intoxicated. But we'll see what happens. In any case, I said a motel is a better idea since things here are rather stressful at the moment. I think she is still doing that, I'm not sure.

my mom and grandma decided to make fried dough and the smoke irritated my lungs so bad I had to sit outside by myself for a long time while they all got to enjoy Christmas inside talking to each other and stuff. 

it also irritated my eyes and nose so bad it made me melt all of my makeup off from snot and tears, and my eyes were burning so bad, but then the makeup got in them from it melting and I looked like a raccoon of mascara and eye liner, and it was now burning like insanely bad from the makeup getting in it. I couldn't even open my eyes and I had to fish for something to wipe it off with my eyes closed and I had no eye safe makeup remover so what I used made my eyes and face burn. 

and ruined the makeup I did completely. 

and then to top it off they made a Christmas lunch or whatever but, it was all things made with butter and dairy which I can't eat. So I just ate a piece of bread and then I fell asleep because carbs make me go to sleep. 

But yeah, not being able to breathe is not fun and really exhausting, my eyes burning not able to open them, and then having like a carb crash all at once. and I completely ruined my makeup and hair. 

and then my nephew got a huge bounce castle for Christmas so while they watched him bounce in it for two hours standing in the cold, it was too cold to me to stand outside so I just went to sleep and gave up. 

and then they drove to my uncle's house to drop off their presents which is like 2 hours away. so I didn't go because I don't like being stuck in the car for that long (4 hours total) and it wasn't to visit because of covid so there was no point. just literally putting presents on their porch and then leaving lol. 

to top it off my parents bought me Christmas presents theoretically in their head instead of actually getting them so, and then decided to fight about it in front of me instead until I got so tired of it I eventually said "I would rather light myself on fire than get a gift at this point, let's just scratch the whole thing, please for the love of god." 

so for Christmas this year I got arguing, an asthma attack, a piece of bread, and a nap. and shit in my eye. 

Still doesn’t top the Christmas my family had a huge argument which I was the topic of, the argument...

so I was in the center of it just watching it rip my family apart and at the same time pointing fingers at me and screaming at each other saying awful things 

and then I had a panic attack and locked myself in the bathroom to throw up and freak out 

and then had to take a klonopin and went to sleep crying 

LOL