If I’m being completely honest I’ve never seen you mentally stable and not off in some strange deluded state. This is just one of many of your phases unfortunately. I don’t understand it, I’m not a professional so I don’t know how to help you. All I can do is provide you with the observation.
Sounds like you’re going to end wrapped up in the church of Scientology or another strange cult. Have fun with that. -.-
Actually no, she wouldn't join one of those as they don't promise her a means towards power, but rather a means of letting go towards a selfless salvation while your body's doing tasks for them.
She'd need to start a religion, otherwise she's more prone to going towards Satanism over how it literally tells you to worship yourself.
If I’m being completely honest I’ve never seen you mentally stable and not off in some strange deluded state.
She has lucid moments, but when her ego is hit with some sort of wound she rebukes it with a literal God Complex. Part of the problem is that she signs onto here mostly when she needs to vent rather than all the time, so we don't get a complete picture by reading about her on here unless you do a shit ton of filtering.
The moments to pay attention for are when she's more deep end: She'll begin arguing with herself and calling half of her strategies "trolling", even readopting it as the legit narrative only hours later. At the end of the day she'll only remember the positive aspects of her own choices, so if you ask her she'll claim to have done little wrong that wasn't really someone else's fault (considering she's the divine goddess and all in charge of her own fate, choosing this suffering to grow as a spiritual body for her physical one).
She doesn't know what she wants, she's just fending off racing thoughts that insist she's amazing once life becomes too hard to hoist on her back, which considering her life is pretty often but with her current bo' she's taking new risks. Her mental state is liable to be weightlifting more than usual from not being able to fall back on her family right now, much like you'd see of budding disorderly symptoms from fresh-out-of-home college kids.
All of this began the minute her bo said he wanted kids, prior to that she was pretty composed while discussing his issues. Once something was seen in her own mind as her fault she explodes like this and delusionally insists "the goddess" isn't responsible.
It's arguably a defensive form of mania.
