My girlfriend mentioned that everytime I talk with her on google meet I take the laptop and go to the other room. This made me sit and ponder why I am doing it
I feel guilty talking to my female HR manager as if I am cheating. She has a very sweet high pitch voice, clean spotless face with no blemishes or dark spots, pearl white teeth. She is very childlike and jumpy, also seems a little naive.
She always seems nervous about her job and a little insecure but always tries to make everyone happy and please the team. She is very nice and sweet when we talk. She sent me a hug emoji on LinkedIn and always smiles when we talk which makes me feel like she's attracted to me and is flirting with me.
She is always helpful in our discussions and gives me advice on how to approach other members of the team, along with softening any sort of criticism very carefully, which is extremely endearing and tells me she is very compassionate, like she has a golden heart.
While I was browsing 4chan I realized I was running a whole fantasy in my head where I kidnapped her to Turkey and then after her realizing I care about her and like her she fell for me and we were happy thereafter.
I am going to write this to try to expel this thought from my head and maybe move on. I wonder if I should ask for another HR or switch companies to forget about her.
