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• When i was in like 8th grade or 9th grade idk 

everyone had this ask.fm accounts 

where you could anonymously ask people questions on their profile, then u respond. 

And like everyone in the school is following each other on their ask.fm’s and reading each other’s answers everyday staying up on whats hot off the press 

and i changed my entire background of my profile pic to repeated images of a toilet with a face painted on it 

and then i also made my profile picture that same image of a toilet 

Then my friend Natalie was like we need to get you in the dating game, okay lets look at ur ask.fm account 

(this was like tinder equivalent back in the day u were supposed to make urself look likable and hot) 

and then she loaded the page and just looked over at me like 

-.- 

“mary, what the fuck is this” 

and i just laughed my ass off and she kept telling me to stop laughing and then i got in trouble and had to leave the library for laughing too much and not doing my homework 

https://www.roblox.com/library/21141296/toilet-with-face 

Pretty sure this was the exact image i used if not something very similar 

I used to repeat "It'll never happen, it never happened, and it isn't happening" when I was scared as a kid. That way I covered all 3 bases of time. 

In third grade i got my first phone. It had a camera but it was flip phone. Old school shit. Pre-iPhone days. This was pre-razor phone if u remember that ;) 

the fact it had a camera and could record video was like really dope. And i loved like taking pictures of things like flowers. And then my sister and I were sitting at my moms work or something one day after school, we were really bored and didn’t know what to do. 

And I started like tryign to take pics or my sister or film her without her knowing just to like make her mad lol and I’d like be snickering like HAHHA I GOT A PICTURE OF UUUU WHEN U WEREN’T LOOKINGGG and she’d be like DEEEELTETE IT IT LOOKS SO ULGY DELETE THAT RIGHT NOW. And chase me and I’d try to keep the phone away. 

Finally she took the phone from me and started filming me, and I started doing stupid shit like, I put on some random sunglasses and a hat that i found nearby and started just goofing off (i was a really goofy kid naturally in elementary school like, that’s all i did was goof off and i loved to make comedy and laugh with friends everywhere i went that’s all i ever wanted to do was joke around) 

and i just liked inventing these theatrical characters and acting absurd and wacky and telling jokes to make people laugh, or I’d dance around funny, make weird faces etc. it was all very weird but i was like, known for that. Class clown. 

I didn’t know how to like relate to my friends who were girls so i would just like tell jokes the whole time and they kept me around for that reason because i was entertaining. I don’t think otherwise they would of invited me to anything LOL so it was a way for me to socially survive despite my own awkwardness. 

There’s lots of video footage of me as a kid at family events or, rehearsals or whatever- even in photos- just being absolutely rediculous and silly. Other people are laughing and I’m just doing something weird. I always had to like, get the ball rolling and get the whole dinner table laughing. That was just my thing. So as soon as a camera turns out it was my natural instinct to sort of, perform for it. Comedically. 

And then i enjoyed what i improv’d so much, like, laughing at the video i made on that phone. I told my sister to keep filming me and I’d keep making videos. And laughing pissing myself and then making more videos. I was entertaining myself and, her as well. 

And eventually she got bored of it and went to do her homework and i kept like filming myself holding the camera. 

You see where this is going. So, for Christmas i asked for a camera. My grandma got me one and i was so happy cuz it was all i wanted. And then i started making all kind of strange videos of myself in like 4th and 5th grade. 

I showed them to my cousin and she was ike LOLLLLL LETS MAKE SOME VIDS TOGETHER I WANNA BE IN ONE and i started filming her too because she was also very funny (to me) lol. And we were like best friends always hanging out with nothing to do but, left to our devices. We had to create our own entertainment so this is what we did. 

And we just started filming ourselves acting rediculous. This was pre-youtube. I discovered editing software on the windows computer. And started fucking with that a bit. And we started getting ideas for like video series? 

I also just, it became a weird hobby like the camera was always out and i would just vlog everything in my life. Like i had to make sure to document each thing. My dance friends. If we went out somewhere, i filmed it. Family events. Everything. Idk why lol i guess it was just something to do when i was bored but like there was this obsessive desire to capture it and then turn it into a vlog of like, my life. Sort of like scrap booking. 

And then it became a way of like, making friends in middle school and me and my friends from school started making videos together this was in 2006 now. And when I discovered youtube i thought it was the best thing ever so we started making all kINDS of videos. I had a gaming channel as well. 

And yeah... i should post some of these videos because they’re pretty funny... lmao but yeah. They’re vERY stupid. 

We get pretty creative with it. Um... and yeah the videos continued through like 8th - 10th grade I think. 

I did film some videos after this point but the footage is lost unfortunately, i had filmed like, trips i took to New Orleans and like, um... various shit in my life. It was like, life updates and. I filmed one silly video called, “how to be fugly” which is sad I lost it because it was probably the funniest one. I was like putting on makeup and then making fun of it and telling jokes through out the process and being really sarcastic. And then some of the videos were about music. 

But yeah the videos from 4th-10th grade i have. I dont have the ones from 3rd grade that were filmed on that flip phone lol. 

Xadem said: 

I used to repeat "It'll never happen, it never happened, and it isn't happening" when I was scared as a kid. That way I covered all 3 bases of time. 

 LMAO i used to fear that if i thought negatively about someone they will not give me what i want for ex if i think bad about my dad he wont buy me ice cream later and if i think about something not happening it might not happen. i still do it to this day. 

MartinLooterKing said: 

i would come back from school, get in my jammies, play this on the tape, close my eyes, imagining myself shooting americans, jews, conquering kuffar lands with my 1st grader friends on horses. i got so deep into it that my dad caught me and started questioning me (hes a secular and hates that stuff).

Dude

MartinLooterKing said: 

Xadem said: 

I used to repeat "It'll never happen, it never happened, and it isn't happening" when I was scared as a kid. That way I covered all 3 bases of time. 

 LMAO i used to fear that if i thought negatively about someone they will not give me what i want for ex if i think bad about my dad he wont buy me ice cream later and if i think about something not happening it might not happen. i still do it to this day. 

 This is why you are unhappy, don't you think? You have a very negative mindset. 

Xadem said: 

MartinLooterKing said: 

Xadem said: 

I used to repeat "It'll never happen, it never happened, and it isn't happening" when I was scared as a kid. That way I covered all 3 bases of time. 

 LMAO i used to fear that if i thought negatively about someone they will not give me what i want for ex if i think bad about my dad he wont buy me ice cream later and if i think about something not happening it might not happen. i still do it to this day. 

 This is why you are unhappy, don't you think? You have a very negative mindset. 

Negative mindset in what way? I always expect to succeed financially or in technical / skill based tasks, but I expect to not be loved or wanted (to the point I think my gf might be mentally ill cuz she sees something good in me and seems to love me) and also expecting catastrophes (disasters, death, earthquakes, being killed) prob due to PTSD.

I have been on a happy mood lately though, biking daily and the thought of that soon I might have a family makes me think about suicide less.

Legga said: 

MartinLooterKing said: 

i would come back from school, get in my jammies, play this on the tape, close my eyes, imagining myself shooting americans, jews, conquering kuffar lands with my 1st grader friends on horses. i got so deep into it that my dad caught me and started questioning me (hes a secular and hates that stuff).

Dude

 Ikr. Then at 6th grade we moved to Romania and I fought other kids cuz I saw em as kuffars but then I became more civilized (read: became a computer autist)

I am more moderate today with the Islam stuff but I kek at me as a kid.