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H1mml3r said: 

I still regret my throwaway of big opportunities, because of my impulsive to drop out of the college I was going to, I am unable to even go into the career I want to, which I lied to myself not wanting.

I costed my family a lot of money by dropping out. So, even despite the fact that I don't love them, and they piss me off. I still feel regret over causing that financial harm to them. Even if they give me homicidal thoughts. 

I won't be able to go to college where I had a fresh life. I was social and everything, had great friends. Most of my life, I was just introverted and reserved. 

I felt alive, but now I am back into this hell. 



Even if what it says in latin isn't as deep from what I know. It's still nice to hear and the instrumentals are great. 

I need to take baby steps, I am just trying to find out where to even begin. I need to get a real job first I think, and use having to work as a means for framing my schedule. 

I won't be able to achieve my career dream of computer science, so I'll do welding, and enter a union.

Though, I don't even know if I'd even be able to succeed at welding, I want to learn it, a lot of things but I feel like I am such an idiot when it comes to the material world. I feel like I have no comprehension for how most things work.

I hate the path my life went down, and I recognize that I can't go back. I need to learn to just accept it entirely and focus on improving. 

The past is the past so forget about it.

What do you want? 

Stop whining, you worthless little shit. 

H1mml3r said: 

I need to take baby steps, I am just trying to find out where to even begin. I need to get a real job first I think, and use having to work as a means for framing my schedule. 

I won't be able to achieve my career dream of computer science, so I'll do welding, and enter a union.

I disagree. You could get a CS degree. It requires drive, dedication and hard work -- not much more than that. However, I doubt computer science is the `dream` you expect it to be. The real challenge is getting what you want out of a CS degree. Most people doing a University degree end up drifting and lose sight of what is important to them.

Though, I don't even know if I'd even be able to succeed at welding, I want to learn it, a lot of things but I feel like I am such an idiot when it comes to the material world. I feel like I have no comprehension for how most things work.

I hate the path my life went down, and I recognize that I can't go back. I need to learn to just accept it entirely and focus on improving.

The hard part is getting started, finding someone to mentor you, and keeping motivated. If you tick off those three things, you'll do great.