I have trust issues and there are examples of both God and Jesus being deceptive in the bible.
you have paranoia and trust issues too so I know you understand that, but you probably havent analyzed (and had scripture shoved down your throat incessently) the scriptures as much as I have. I was raised in churches and private Christian school all centered around the religion
I know it very very well, and my rejection of the religion lies in this simple question: why should I trust a (possibly) imaginary entity to be telling me the 100% truth if there are examples of that entity lying in His/its own "Holy text biography and rulebook"?
especially an entity I felt disappointed and abandoned by and not cared enough about in my "relationship" with him/It
Why should I trust that He/it loves me and is telling me the 100% truth if I have evidence of 1) not feeling loved or taken care of by this entity and 2) being lied to by this entity and 3) This entity exhibiting behavior of an evil hateful and angry monster
in the words of Richard Dawkins.........
I know I probably super offended you and I was trying really hard to think of a way to discuss it more maturely in a future discussion, but I got triggered and this is my apology