I'm afraid of settling down, and I'm beginning to see babies as a prison. It's probably nice to have a smaller version of you walking around, doing shit, knowing that your life had some small meaning since... you know.. You got to spread your genes. So I'm not asking if you like babies... I'm more interested in people's thoughts about settling down. If you don't want to be a complete dickhead of a father, you'd need to take care of the little piece of garbage.
I recently made a few major changes in my life that gave me a peace of mind, stability, meaningful relationships, slightly better salary, and a friendly environment. Yet, I can't help but feel...... Unsatisfied. My life before this was conflicts, deadlines, dealing with unfamiliar situations and danger around the corner, stress, etc. Now my wife keeps hinting that we buy a house, put our feet to the ground and have a family... In the past, I said something along the lines of "yeah sure, why not." Maybe I should've thought about it a bit more carefully.
I can't help but feel like there's something very final I'd be doing if I went with that... It doesn't really "feel" like that's what I was made to do. My life is supposed to have some grand meaning, adventure, and an end-goal.. That end-goal isn't supposed to be society's checklist. Maybe that's why I respect Turncoat, since he decided to go fuck-all and change his gender (assuming he'll really go through with it).
Maybe that's why my dad left my mom. He never seemed like the kind of person to settle down. But he passed the spread-your-gene test without any of the cons, so I guess that's something. Although his only offsprings are my lesbian sister and my broken self, not a very impressive feat. I was thinking of donating sperm... I wonder what the chances are that someone takes it and gives birth to a kid. But probably the other half will be some fat cow lesbian that will dilute my genes and give birth to some other abomination that doesn't procreate, and that's the end of the Major Major bloodline.
On this topic..... Is there any good way to pass on your genes to a sizeable population without being a complete dick? I guess sperm donation is the only option... Unless I want to go into one of those arabic countries where, if I am right, I can plant a seed in a new girl every day.. That'd be something. I'm almost a-sexual so I'd really just do it to fulfil my purpose..
Anyway... The people here are a bit too young for this topic... and I was really thinking of making a topic about this on psychforums but then I figure out that registering there again is a pain and they'd anyway say something generic like "you're still young so explore your life, you can always decide later!" or "settling down may be scary, but this is a great first step!". Go fuck yourselves psychforums. If my wife gives birth to a baby too late, it will be more likely to be mentally retarded. Research, QED.
What are your thoughts? Do you even think?