so much anger and joy, intertwining themselves until the world is made up of splotches of red and yellow, my ears ringing as i vomit, i cant breath, i laugh, i smile, i scream from outrage. blood. blood from my self cannibalism, the flesh feels good in my teeth, im on the floor, gasping for air, such joy, such pure joy, pure unnatural joy, anger, i want to explode to express these feelings inside