BohemianRhapsody said:This is just a repeat of history, I guess I'm neutral. I'd move to another one if I found one I liked more (or liked at all). My prescense on SC is probably a phase that I will move on from. I met my wife here, but she doesn't even come here anymore though...
I understand that my influence here is fading, I am widely disliked and rather numb to the fact. But, I suppose there is nothing left to fight, this feels like just another two pi in a perpetual sinewave. The CX thing with delora was really interesting, but since then, there is not really much I feel like analyzing. I've said so much in so many ways that there does not seem to be anything left to say.
Sometimes this place seems like somewhere trapped in the same time period that just repeats and repeats. I crave something new, and I guess the reasons I come here are the same reasons I occasionally still play Skyrim- it's something I am used to, comfortable. And like Skyrim, now I just run around causing chaos, unlike back when I first started playing, and I'd get all into the lore and create swords and stuff, and feel like I was really part of that world. But now it's just cerebral comfort food. SC is the same for me now. This is a common thing I do, come to think of it. I revisit old fascinations in hopes they give me what they once did, only to find I am comfortably numb to them now. The stage is fossilized in my mind. I only hope I can soon find my next fascination to pursue, my life is always better when I have one.
I don't really see myself coming here as much as time goes on, I don't care like I used to, I can only find the new if I drop the old, after all. But, I don't like that my memory will be what it is now, I would have been better off quitting when I still made my signature threads and let myself fade into the SC history books, but nevermore. I accept my trespasses, I take the reputation. Maybe the tales of my time here will be sang of, maybe I'll fade like countless others, but one thing stands true- SC taught me a lot about the nature of humans, important lessons. I feel more wise having experienced this community, and surely it has been valuable in helping me grow as a person. So on that note I wish everyone the best, even the ones of don't like me and who I have went after (the "haters"). You all may rest now, my relentless barrage is over. Time to pursue my future, in Hawaii, and wherever else I go, and whatever fascination I may pick up next. Anyways, I think I have said enough.
Thank you all for giving me this experience, the good times and the bad.
Arrivederci.
My grandiose delusions are better than yours.