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I do not need an emotional fence 

this is where it is 

Aha, yes. *adjusts glasses* a clear case of chronic diarrhea. Sad case truly, and incurable at that. This is your life now. Godspeed. 

CHAPO YOU ARE NOT A BLACK WIDOW FIRST OF ALL THAT WOULD BE MY MOTHER AND I DONT NEED A MOTHER YOU MUTTERFICKER

i do not like losing control.

I cannot keep up with my hair 

I cannot keep up with my feet

The secret to life I had to tell you one thing and I probably learned it from you but forgot: is mandatory minimums

I mean in my real life hair is a minimum to some people; I go on with Poppy and Anderson and they tell me people are willing to forgive a lot if you just do the hair. 

My true self is really manicured like really fucking manicured do you here me.

I think you know anyway I don't have to tell you.

YOOOOOO For all the hangers-on here whatever hair is to you, at this point whatever makeup and any of that shellac is to you.

            xx

I do not like losing control

Would you forgive me if I lost control in front of you

The real question is would you accidentally kill me

CHAPO YOU fucking black widow motherfucker

            xi

I HAVE GOTTEN SO CLOSE SO MANY TIMES MIMI BUT I JUST KNOW THAT MY THING WAS THEY PUT MY FINGER SO CLOSE TO THE FLAME AND THEY HELD IT THERE BUT FOR WHATVER REASON WE WOULD NOT END IT. 

AND GET HOW SICK THIS IS THE PARENTS TO KNOW AT THE LAST MINUTE THEY ARE FAKE I COULD JUST LEAVE IT THERE BUT THEY CANNOT.

they won't even allow me my permanency

The fact that I can fucking type this is out is a clue to me anyway that I am here and now.

It's not fucking be here now tattooed on my arm like some fake surfer.

TAKE THE FUCKING INJURY OUT AND THEN I TAKE THE TATTOO OFF AND SO.

Would I allow you to reset my bones ?

I dont know.

IS THAT LIKE SAYING WOULD YOU fuck and kill me.

Accidentally.

And this is how you would fucking lead me into a car for YOUR fucking getaway which was supposed to be our fucking getaway. You would fucking trap me in a trick car with a passenger door so I could not get out. I almost could not get away. I mean out of the car is fine but I really could not almost could not get away. I might override that til sundown. My fucking fake Dad let her kill him. But she is a bit too stupid for him and he a bit too stupid for her and on and on know what Im saying?

I think you wanted honestly wanted to have the laugh together you were making a trosseau of me whatever you wanted to say and we were on our way "Memorial Day" "High Finance Monday" but  we got stalled at a fucking intersection right at the county line (im sure they actually move the line more often than you think)

BECAUSE AN AUTHORITATIVE MOM IN COMMON WANTED TO TEACH YOU A LESSON or rather teach me a lesson  (because she wanted to attach to us.)

DO YOU SEE ME NOW BECAUSE YOU WOULDNT EVEN LET ME SEE YOU.

What about the sex of the mind where we just stare at each other and you masturbate in front of me. I would know it's you. In fact to protect myself I may have held off sex with someone I thought was you and let them masturbate to me. Something told me I was safe while something told me they were horribly wrong and while I do not like losing control. Actually in this way I may be too smart for you it's not a vivid imagination. I saw you and your face and your body and a fake penis. Penis there I said it. You actually see could have tricked me. 

Chapo you are so attched to your penis. Would you fake a penis to me for whatever reason. Im not going to give you so much rope that you would do that. Penis is your emotional fence as probably was my thumbs and my SWEDISH BLANKET THEY ALLOWED ME CALLED TIN-TIN. FOR THE LONGEST TIME I WAS LIKE WHAT IS A TIN-TIN. I THINK IT"S A 1920's SWEDISH DOG.

The mafia mom cut up the blanket. Get the allusions here.  I knew you were here, I knew they were here also as your fence. It's like when you again gave me again really bad sex.

I knew. I think I knew but I didn;'t want to believe. Because I do not like losing control and this is say my one conceit. We probably had to have really bad sex that time. But I'm the product of attachers and I don't want you to <C#6 operatic voice sott voce> I don't want you to leave me. 

YOU KNOW WhAT SOME OF THE BEST ART COMES TO ME LIKE A CHEAP PRISON TATTOO. TATTOOS ARE GROSS THATS NOT WHAT I MEAN. THIS IS WHAT PRISON TATTOO MEANS TO ME ITS NOT THE LAST WORDS YOU WANT TO  BE REMEMBERED BY IT'S almost true it's really almost true but it's not almost true.x

 5/27/20 7:31 AM.

I want to see you by lamp light.

bleary said: 

CHAPO YOU ARE NOT A BLACK WIDOW FIRST OF ALL THAT WOULD BE MY MOTHER AND I DONT NEED A MOTHER YOU MUTTERFICKER

i do not like losing control.

bleary said: 

I cannot keep up with my hair 

I cannot keep up with my feet

The secret to life I had to tell you one thing and I probably learned it from you but forgot: is mandatory minimums

I mean in my real life hair is a minimum to some people; I go on with Poppy and Anderson and they tell me people are willing to forgive a lot if you just do the hair. 

My true self is really manicured like really fucking manicured do you here me.

I think you know anyway I don't have to tell you.

YOOOOOO For all the hangers-on here whatever hair is to you, at this point whatever makeup and any of that shellac is to you.

            xx

I do not like losing control

Would you forgive me if I lost control in front of you

The real question is would you accidentally kill me

CHAPO YOU fucking black widow motherfucker

            xi

I HAVE GOTTEN SO CLOSE SO MANY TIMES MIMI BUT I JUST KNOW THAT MY THING WAS THEY PUT MY FINGER SO CLOSE TO THE FLAME AND THEY HELD IT THERE BUT FOR WHATVER REASON WE WOULD NOT END IT. 

AND GET HOW SICK THIS IS THE PARENTS TO KNOW AT THE LAST MINUTE THEY ARE FAKE I COULD JUST LEAVE IT THERE BUT THEY CANNOT.

they won't even allow me my permanency

The fact that I can fucking type this is out is a clue to me anyway that I am here and now.

It's not fucking be here now tattooed on my arm like some fake surfer.

TAKE THE FUCKING INJURY OUT AND THEN I TAKE THE TATTOO OFF AND SO.

Would I allow you to reset my bones ?

I dont know.

IS THAT LIKE SAYING WOULD YOU fuck and kill me.

Accidentally.

And this is how you would fucking lead me into a car for YOUR fucking getaway which was supposed to be our fucking getaway. You would fucking trap me in a trick car with a passenger door so I could not get out. I almost could not get away. I mean out of the car is fine but I really could not almost could not get away. I might override that til sundown. My fucking fake Dad let her kill him. But she is a bit too stupid for him and he a bit too stupid for her and on and on know what Im saying?

I think you wanted honestly wanted to have the laugh together you were making a trosseau of me whatever you wanted to say and we were on our way "Memorial Day" "High Finance Monday" but  we got stalled at a fucking intersection right at the county line (im sure they actually move the line more often than you think)

BECAUSE AN AUTHORITATIVE MOM IN COMMON WANTED TO TEACH YOU A LESSON or rather teach me a lesson  (because she wanted to attach to us.)

DO YOU SEE ME NOW BECAUSE YOU WOULDNT EVEN LET ME SEE YOU.

What about the sex of the mind where we just stare at each other and you masturbate in front of me. I would know it's you. In fact to protect myself I may have held off sex with someone I thought was you and let them masturbate to me. Something told me I was safe while something told me they were horribly wrong and while I do not like losing control. Actually in this way I may be too smart for you it's not a vivid imagination. I saw you and your face and your body and a fake penis. Penis there I said it. You actually see could have tricked me. 

Chapo you are so attched to your penis. Would you fake a penis to me for whatever reason. Im not going to give you so much rope that you would do that. Penis is your emotional fence as probably was my thumbs and my SWEDISH BLANKET THEY ALLOWED ME CALLED TIN-TIN. FOR THE LONGEST TIME I WAS LIKE WHAT IS A TIN-TIN. I THINK IT"S A 1920's SWEDISH DOG.

The mafia mom cut up the blanket. Get the allusions here.  I knew you were here, I knew they were here also as your fence. It's like when you again gave me again really bad sex.

I knew. I think I knew but I didn;'t want to believe. Because I do not like losing control and this is say my one conceit. We probably had to have really bad sex that time. But I'm the product of attachers and I don't want you to <C#6 operatic voice sott voce> I don't want you to leave me. 

YOU KNOW WhAT SOME OF THE BEST ART COMES TO ME LIKE A CHEAP PRISON TATTOO. TATTOOS ARE GROSS THATS NOT WHAT I MEAN. THIS IS WHAT PRISON TATTOO MEANS TO ME ITS NOT THE LAST WORDS YOU WANT TO  BE REMEMBERED BY IT'S almost true it's really almost true but it's not almost true.x

 5/27/20 7:31 AM.

bleary said: 

I want to see you by lamp light.

It's like shaman language or something, the structure's all over the place and alluding to nonsense. 

It's almost Post Modern, a reflection of the modern age thrown through a blender through odd buzz words and nonsensical metaphorical paths. 

UP.

AT THE TIME I WROTE THIS I NEEDED CHELATED “MINERSLS” ESSENTIALLY