even though I spent most of the time on sociopathcommunity playing different characters, I did reveal some of my emotional wounds in an effort to heal from them which ended up working although it took some time
I am much more emotionally strong and self confident now and have achieved many goals I had when I was younger this year which is amazing :) and most importantly, I am able to be unphased by certain opinions that differed from my own and controlled me by making me feel insecure. no longer tho!! and I am so so happy :)
constructive criticism is great when it is intended to point you in the direction that leads to you being the best version of yourself, but when it is intended to tear you down and make you feel insecure there is no reason to continue subjecting yourself to that. trauma bonds are a bitch and I have been trauma bonded since very young so it took a while to heal. when you are trauma bonded you tend to bring abuse upon yourself over and over to try to make it right again until you realize that actually you should just abandon the trauma altogether :):) that is when you know you have truly healed