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Jim and Tryptamine were the biggest triggers of my emotional damage


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even though I spent most of the time on sociopathcommunity playing different characters, I did reveal some of my emotional wounds in an effort to heal from them which ended up working although it took some time

 

I am much more emotionally strong and self confident now and have achieved many goals I had when I was younger this year which is amazing :) and most importantly, I am able to be unphased by certain opinions that differed from my own and controlled me by making me feel insecure. no longer tho!! and I am so so happy :)

 

constructive criticism is great when it is intended to point you in the direction that leads to you being the best version of yourself, but when it is intended to tear you down and make you feel insecure there is no reason to continue subjecting yourself to that. trauma bonds are a bitch and I have been trauma bonded since very young so it took a while to heal. when you are trauma bonded you tend to bring abuse upon yourself over and over to try to make it right again until you realize that actually you should just abandon the trauma altogether :):) that is when you know you have truly healed

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lol glad you're all better now

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Xadem said: 

lol glad you're all better now

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I used to think that challenging relationships were good for me and enjoyable and helped me to become a better person, whatever better meant anyway it was mostly ego fueled and proving others wrong about how special and valuable I am, but now I feel friendships and relationships should be easy and natural, less drama, and instead challenging myself with career and creative pursuits

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The people who are able to break me here from what I know would be TC and Alice, which does hurt, since I developed an admiration for both of them as intellectual rolemodels. Though, I'd say I'm doing better now. 

I'm sure Trypt and Slay could do the same, but I don't view it as entirely characteristic. Maybe Trypt when he's in a bad mood, but regardless. I don't develop a hatred for anyone who has hurt me, my respect for them still remains. 

I try to self-critique myself as much as I can to begin with, so that I can keep a consistent, efficient, effective state of being. 

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I wasn't even difficult to you. If you would quit swinging from one thing to another like a tree monkey, you would calm down and see things more clearly. I have little to no hope you can do that, though. Put some quartz in your pockets and balance your chakra out.

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I wasn't even difficult to you. If you would quit swinging from one thing to another like a tree monkey, you would calm down and see things more clearly. I have little to no hope you can do that, though. Put some quartz in your pockets and balance your chakra out.

 That sounds very boring

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You couldn't be hurt by them if you weren't thin skinned about those subjects. 

They're the two who are truly stress testing your resistances, and should be thanked for the assistance towards your overall strength and tenacity. 

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Xadem said: 

lol glad you're all better now

I used to think that challenging relationships were good for me and enjoyable and helped me to become a better person, whatever better meant anyway it was mostly ego fueled and proving others wrong about how special and valuable I am, but now I feel friendships and relationships should be easy and natural, less drama, and instead challenging myself with career and creative pursuits

I never saw you stop desiring to seek an enabler, personally. You always cussed people out for making you think, even though said thinking is why you're where you are now. 

When did you actually desire constructive criticism, because I never saw you doing that. It was like pulling teeth with you. 

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I have thousands of enablers, and meditating on retardation isn't constructive sweetie 

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