I think he is super unhappy with himself and his life because of his own issues and he seems me as just like, a by product of all his horrible decisions and this terrible life he made for himself and like, he takes it out on me subconsciously because I am like, to him just lumped in with all the other shit he doesn't care about and wish didn't exist
like I'm just in the way. and whenever he talks to me now, he either is telling me what to do, or is negating something I said, or saying something rude and demeaning to me.
I can't avoid it because I fucking live here, so every time I get up and go anywhere in my house he opens his mouth and says something to me, usually criticizing me or telling me what to do and what he thinks of me.
he is incredibly insecure himself and like doesn't like himself and is naturally self critical and judgmental, of the rpeople and thinks everyone is judging him too and so he projects all of that insecurity onto me and like, its a neurosis he has in his head toward himself but then he also projects himself onto me and then tells me his insecurities he would have if he were me.
it's toxic perfectionism.
