It isn't meant to garner your approval you can keep harvesting your google searches, trying to look beneath the surface, just to feed your thesis that I think that I am worthless. You can get your Sigmund and just stick him up your ass, then read up on your Frued just just to avoid the simple fact that my esteem is not an act, and use your dream to get your team and scheme to guess about my past, but despite this you can't fight pride that exists so finish last.