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Anyway, 

my family is dealing with it by joking and laughing and attempting normalcy through bouts of bickering arguing and snapping at each other 

I’m just kind of keeping to myself, as I’ve always done. Because it’s better that way. 

I’m less likely to be bothered if I hide they forget I’m there sort of. Out of sight out of mind. And I keep quiet and just play my games. As long as I’m quiet no one bothers me- for the most part. 

The problem in this house is we are all very dominant and independent natured people. No one is willing to adapt and adjust to work as flow and function as a team. A collaborative.... effort.. 

Most households do. Naturally. But, we naturally repel each other like magnets- and every detail between us just becomes fodder for cannons to go off and grenades or hidden explosives among minefields 

You just never know what it’s gonna be next that sets someone off but- it’ll be something. It starts small and the trickle turns into a dam waiting to burst and then it does. 

im just sort of playing defense the whole time like curving shit that’s thrown at me and trying not to get a black eye

*vase goes flying across the room* 

me: *ducks* 

My dad: *comes into the room screaming and slamming shit* 

me: quietly escapes to the bathroom

I understand why they’re angry. 

And, I get it, I could be angry too. 

But I think I let it go a long time ago. I can’t tell if I let it go or just stopped caring. 

As i made my coffee and stared out the window, my dad was playing some insanely happy sounding 70’s music on the Alexa... 

and i said, “I’m starting to feel like I’m in that episode of black mirror- ground hog day- or was it, snow globe?” 

And he said, what? 

And i said, “I feel like I’m starting to get insane from that music you’re playing.” And walked away lol 

Oh and the other "emergency" that happened is my dad had to go to the pharmacy to get medicine. 

I will too eventually, out of necessity. Psych meds. 

I told everyone who leaves the house how to do things properly so that it's pretty fool proof but, hah- hopefully we don't, ya know. get the covid :/ 

If you don't know, it's pretty bad in Florida. Most people are running around doing normal things in other parts of the world, but here- no one would fathom it. 

No one goes to the store, etc. it is pure lockdown. It got out of control because a lot of people from New York fled to Florida at the beginning of the outbreak trying to get out of the epicenter, and decided to go somewhere warm for their little holiday- 

that, and the amount of partying and shit going on in Miami, and the number of cases we had to start with that were from china and other parts, it was just, a mess. 

and, being a tourist capital. they closed Disney when it was too late. 

I don't know how it is in parts where you are- I've heard it's really bad in Turkey, and places like that. That people are just committing suicide or dying in the streets. 

And in china, people were just collapsing in public and laying there- no one would help them, and certain villages walled themselves off. 

That has happened here too. Certain islands on the coast of Florida have closed their borders and will not allow anyone in. Guarded with machine guns. It's only the islands with, the money to afford such a measure though. Nothing gets in, it's a sanctuary. there is no coronavirus there. 

I had the idea to go to these islands weeks before there was any coronavirus in Florida at all- but my parents had other plans in place. 

Anyway, people started collapsing here too, outside. Someone did in the same Walgreens I went to earlier that week so get almond milk, and that was the last time I went out- after I heard that. At the time it was known there was Covid in Orlando but, we believed it was more contained than it was- and once I saw the swarm of ambulances surrounding that Walgreens, and the news came out about what happened- someone got it on video from the parking lot. The girl being, escorted out by paramedics. She had a 104 degree fever and was unconscious- she went to the pharmacy I suppose to get... medicine or, maybe to ask for help. 

Anyway, I hope her, and her family are okay. 

After that point it was just, case, after case and it grew and grew, I stopped checking the news but, things circulate locally still and I over hear it from my parents talking about it. Apparently two people at a post office we usually went to, had the virus as well so, we swore off the post office as well... 

Just think of how many packages they touched. 

It's the same issue with the pharmacy, just think of all the bags of medication they touch, all it takes is one infected person, and they infect hundreds... 

So I've given careful instructions to anyone who does *dare* leave the house, for very special situations only. 

Because, it is bad here, it very much in my backyard. That Walgreens and that post office are, literally, what I go to all the time my entire life. Like, just think about how odd that would be to see that happening to your local grocery you always go to. 

Also, my local prison, someone tried to shoot up the place (in an effort to flee arrest, in fear of getting corona virus in the cells) and there was a huge swarm of cops, I'm talking, an ocean- of cop cars and SWAT and ambulances. Surrounding the prison on all sides lol 

It was, insane. It was, more police, coverage than I've seen on any shooting. Because, if one gets out- if hell truly does break loose, it really could be *all* the prisoners getting out. I suppose, they didn't know exactly what was going on and just how bad this was, perhaps they thought that the entire prison was being over thrown by some meticulous well thought out plan. 

But, fortunately for the cops no one lost their life, and it was just one idiot who impulsively smuggled a gun in, and decided to fire, because he was terrified of getting corona and didn't want to go into the prison. (He had just been arrested and brought in for processing) 

It was crazy though, I've never seen anything like it maybe other than, 9/11 obviously was worse. But yeah it was pretty fucking insane. I like how cops always have each others backs, that's a nice sentiment anyway. You know that's who they were most worried about protecting on the inside, and probably the first people he tried to shoot at. 

He didn't even know what he was doing though, or really how to fire the weapon luckily- he was just arrested for drugs. Like, literally not a bad ass, just, a terrified young kid. Like, "not TODAY, not going to JAIL nope nope." I guess he figured he'd go down swinging. 

lmao *not even 2 seconds later* the entire prison is swarmed. 

Can you imagine having 100 guns pointed at you from all sides. 

HAH, the cops were like, "not TODAY bitch, yeah you are going to jail, and now your sentence just got a whole lot worse." 

(who knows if this story they're telling about some kid with a gun and some weed charges is really the real story, I don't see why they would have more cops and SWAT and ambulances than I've ever fucking seen surrounding the place if there wasn't a tip there was something more going on. there is probably more to this story but they're not going to release it because they don't want other people getting the same idea, it probably was a planned coo and the kid with a gun was just a pawn.) 

because, I saw the pulse shooting with my own eyes, in Orlando. And there was not this many cop cars, and the dude shot 50 people with an automatic weapon. This guy in the prison only had a hand gun, and only fired a couple shots and didn't kill anyone. The reaction was beyond over kill for, "just a kid with a gun." I think there was def more to this story, perhaps a bomb threat, who knows. 

(I wasn't in the pulse shooting obviously but I was just a couple miles down the road from pulse during the time of the shooting, so I saw the number of cop cars and SWAT go by and then all surround that building.) 

I had full view because I was in a place with windows all around. The whole night felt odd to me the second we got there, I felt like something sketch was going on, because there was this dude in all black with a black duffle bag who came up to the parking lot out of some dark wooded tree area, met with a woman, left the bag in the dark, and then went back walking in the direction toward pulse. Earlier in the night. 

I didn't say anything but I think I said, "this doesn't feel right, wanna go somewhere else?" and my friends were like noooooo 

and so I was like ugh... fine. But I remember I stood for a few minutes on the side walk, watching this man in the hood walk away, just watching him. Because I was genuinely sketched, I just got this vibe like he was going to take someone hostage in the place. I don't know why. Like, he was planning on coming back. Because he left that bag there. And the woman got in a vehicle and drove away- that he met with. 

I wanted to go over and look at the bag honestly and if I was a cop I would. But I'm not so, I was afraid of getting shot or something, it was like, the perfect spot to go missing too. So I was like,... *stares at bag on the floor for a while* *stares at weird dude in a hood* *stares at bag* 

and my friends are like, do you wanna go inside now (we were smoking and had finished) and I was like.... mmmm... aight... 

but my gut dropped when I went inside and just imagined the place turning into a hostage situation I don't know why but I just couldn't get that out of my head. and I looked around the room at all who was in it, picking out who seemed weak and who seemed like they'd be able to handle a situation lkethat. 

And we sat down and talked for a while, a few hours later- a see some cop cars go by faster than the speed of light with their sirens on. Then, 2 minutes pass. Then, more cops. Then more cops. Then- more cops. And then, bigger cop cars. Ambulances. Coming from both directions now. And I said to my friends, "I think someone shot up the movie theater." Because it was in that direction- 

And I started checking the news on my phone for a shooting. And they were like oh its probably just a wreck... and I'm like no... You don't send SWAT for a wreck. Look- 

And I point and some SWAT cars go by. 

And I'm like, "you wanna get out of here?" 

And they were like, "let me finish eating" and so the entire time they were eating I was refreshing my phone looking for it on the news. 

Then we went home and I continued doing so in bed until finally 5am, something came up, I posted it on Facebook and it went viral pretty instantly and continued to through out the day. 

About the shooting. After that, it was nonstop everyone on Facebook talking about it, constant updates, everyone checking in, are you safe, who do you know that's missing, check on ur ppl

I watched my feed pretty vigilantly because, I wanted to know, who was okay. Everyone did that "check in" thing you can do on Facebook. 

Turns out I did have some friends who were there, *the night before* it happened luckily. But they did have friends who worked there, or who were there that night, some missing, some not. 

Eventually the funeral go fund me's started and, we all looked at the faces posted of the people who were dead, and people talking about, how they knew them. Sending regards to their families, etc. 

And pretty much everyone I knew attended the pulse memorial, and the area- all of Orlando, for a while was covered with, gay pride stickers. On cars, on windows of shops, wearing ribbons, etc. It was everywhere. 

Even the soccer stadium, they painted rainbow seats, for the exact number of victims. 

and then came the incessant talk and fighting on the news, the media coverage, the churches, the politicians, the Facebook feed, inundated with arguments about gun laws- terrorists.... and, westboro baptist church and... all this shit. 

I just remember seeing the people standing with their arms out, wearing all white, protecting the funeral from media, hate, and being, affected. That was a time for the families... etc. 

I thought that was a really, nice thing to do out of respect- they created a barrier wearing white sheets, and like held their hands out. So that the media couldn't cover the funeral, and no one hateful could, fucking attack it etc. 

Some people were saying that the church shouldn't of helped them cover the cost of the funerals because they were gay... 

*face palm* but I think it was the right thing to do most definitely always is, to show compassion, regardless of what fucking sexuality they were, these are people who died of a hateful crime and it was horrific. This is the least a community could do for their families was fund and hold, a respectful funeral... 

Anyways, yeah, I went on a tangent about pulse. But anyway- This whole prison shooting thing had more coverage than that- it was insane. Just for a kid with a hang gun? I don't buy it. There's more to the story :P 

And same with the pulse shooting, it wasn't just one dude. There is more to the story. Same thing with the Las Vegas shooting, and the parkland shooting. They are coming from organized terrorist cells or something of that nature.