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someone secret said: 

are you perpetually bored and taking no pleasure in anything? thats how i have been feeling recently. nothing excites me and everything is lame, i can barely get myself to read a book or talk to people. what about you?

 Same. I've came to realize it's easier to start reading a book when I hardly have any time. Now that I have all the time in the world due to quarantine, I just can't give enough fucks. I could just stare at the blank TV all day long. 

At least your expression of it is more of a matter of waiting it out and diet, there's some people stuck like that. 

Bad Vibes Mickey said: 

someone secret said: 

are you perpetually bored and taking no pleasure in anything? thats how i have been feeling recently. nothing excites me and everything is lame, i can barely get myself to read a book or talk to people. what about you?

 Same. I've came to realize it's easier to start reading a book when I hardly have any time. Now that I have all the time in the world due to quarantine, I just can't give enough fucks. I could just stare at the blank TV all day long. 

A lot of what we find ourselves doing is somewhere between which is easier and what we'd prefer. 

Books become more tempting because of how you'd rather be doing it, but now you find no problem beyond the principle of staring at a turned off screen from that being what comes more naturally for you. 

That's gotta suck. 

Turncoat said: 

Bad Vibes Mickey said: 

someone secret said: 

are you perpetually bored and taking no pleasure in anything? thats how i have been feeling recently. nothing excites me and everything is lame, i can barely get myself to read a book or talk to people. what about you?

 Same. I've came to realize it's easier to start reading a book when I hardly have any time. Now that I have all the time in the world due to quarantine, I just can't give enough fucks. I could just stare at the blank TV all day long. 

A lot of what we find ourselves doing is somewhere between which is easier and what we'd prefer. 

Books become more tempting because of how you'd rather be doing it, but now you find no problem beyond the principle of staring at a turned off screen from that being what comes more naturally for you. 

That's gotta suck. 

 Yes. I don't know how abnormal this is, but I imagine I am watching myself on the screen, murdering people in different ways. At some point, I can't even differentiate what is real and what is not. 

At first I tempted to make those thoughts go away, but with time and the longer I stay in quarantine, I sometimes get myself so lost in thoughts that I wonder if something really happened.

Not just lately.

Now you know how I feel all the time for several years!

i had to go through a lotta trouble and work and jump through hoops just to feel hints of motivation and satisfaction and joy 

 coffee really helps. Don’t start doing drugs for it though or you’ll never be able to stop (it’ll be difficult to anyway)

like drink a lot of shots of espresso and you can kind of pretend not to be depressed sometimes. It’s not fool proof but it gives you that extra push that you just don’t have when you’re too flat to manage to have enough drive to even get out of bed 

there’d more that can be done for depression obviously but it’s quite extensive, mental health treatment stuff. 

but coffee is a good tip

Blanc said: 

Now you know how I feel all the time for several years!

Liar, you are not some edgy frenchman smoking a cigarette while reflecting on your general malaise and ennui. You're screamo, and it's going to take a lot to convince people of otherwise. 

For real Blanc, this is on the level of calling boredom and sadness depression. Your fictitious disorderly habits are showing. 

I do have a mental health problem but I have since gotten a lot better than how it was four years ago now! 

It was probably at it's peak then, and it was really scary and a bad time Tm incorporated 

but just because I've gotten or seem better, doesn't mean that the problem doesn't exist or relapse is impossible. I have to take care of myself acknowledging the disorder and need for continual mindfulness of it and treatment of it- including taking my meds- 

in order to stay well, and not end up in the psych ward again. 

I understand you want to convince me in particular I don't have problems, when I do. I have the diagnosis, major depression, anxiety, and c-ptsd. I've been in treatment for all of these things. 

It can be really dangerous to tell someone that they don't have these things, or to convince them to believe they don't have it, that labels are inaccurate have little basis, and that they don't need to listen to their therapist, their treatment team, their psychiatrist, and don't need to take their medication. 

If I did these things, I'd end up dead from suicide or the disorders themselves would cause havoc/stress for me and in my life. Decreasing, functionality, happiness, and my well being. 

So, at this point I would ask that you tread lightly in telling people what they can and can't say or do, and what they should think of themselves. Because quite frankly, I'm sick of it. 

I draw a line here, because, it took me a long time to accept I even had a diagnosis and needed to take it seriously, and if it I was in the weak and vulnerable place I was four years ago, being told I don't have this diagnosis, turning my back on therapy would have been a pretty lethal decision. 

If you have any care, or any human good in your heart, I recommend trying to consider how you can help people, rather than hurting them. 

Blanc said:

If you have any care, or any human good in your heart, I recommend trying to consider how you can help people, rather than hurting them.

Telling things to people that they don't want to hear is my way of helping them. 

Not all help is soft.