Med I was kidding, and lena is right and everyone has their own issues and idk why you are stuck on Chapo. but im going to pray for you, and this isnt sarcasm



the truth is I never put voodoo on you or anyone ever, but Chapo admitted to me he puts it on you all the time and you are his main victim. he admitted he did it to me too the day we met up, for not doing fake ecstasy that looks like gravel and dog shit and not having sex with him



should we really be fighting over this loser who is going nowhere in life ever, when you are well off financially and intelligent and creative, and I am highly empathetic and sensitive and usually passive and not wanting to truly hurt anyone except when my negative bpd symptoms are flaring, and even then it rarely, like basically ever escalates to physical

 

the answer is No and im not going to fight with you over this person who treats everyone in his life like trash anymore, and the honest truth is it is mind blowing to me (and others too, just check out his Kiwi Farm lol) how he found a girl to marry him

 

the drama was fun but we should both set our sights higher, and I am not going to tear you down if you choose not to but i will encourage you. and yeah people like jim and tryp might say some really abusive things to you but we both just need to ignore them, and find sources of better N supply, I have found better recently and it is helping me see this situation much more clearly. and the rest of the females here know that chapo isnt the best you can do too, even if you are struggling to see this