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FOTS said: 

I have all the benefits of having a gf in the dreamworld without the cons of having one in real life. Bc my dreams are as realistic as reality. No nagging, no spending money, no being social obligated to someone

 

 I don't see "can't have sex" listed as a con. If you don't care about that yet still find benefit in an imaginary gf then you crave some form of connection and aren't as detached as you think you are - you're just coping as best you can.

You're dealing with what you want but don't have with fantasy and lying to yourself instead of dealing with your problems that hinder your personal satisfaction. 

This is exactly what Aub does so I find the irony here funny. 

Slay said: 

FOTS said: 

I have all the benefits of having a gf in the dreamworld without the cons of having one in real life. Bc my dreams are as realistic as reality. No nagging, no spending money, no being social obligated to someone

 

 I don't see "can't have sex" listed as a con. If you don't care about that yet still find benefit in an imaginary gf then you crave some form of connection and aren't as detached as you think you are - you're just coping as best you can.

You're dealing with what you want but don't have with fantasy and lying to yourself instead of dealing with your problems that hinder your personal satisfaction. 

This is exactly what Aub does so I find the irony here funny. 

 

 Ya no human is good enough for me as a partner I admit that, and I lost my desire to have irl sex upon realizing that where as before I had been a slut and was fucking all different types of men, and I hate being human so my solution is suicide either intentional or unintentional whichever it ends up being 

 Its like a "No one deserves the intimacy of my body and being physically inside of me" anymore type of thing

If you can't measure up to my admittedly impossibly high standards of a partner in all areas of life not just sexually then I don't want you touching me sexually, because you don't deserve it because you fail my high standards

Chapo got lucky even just being able to touch my breast and put his arm around me hold my hand and play with it and sit next to me tbh

I don't even like people touching me like hugging me anymore, but I let my relatives do it all the time and other people like therapists and neighbors and people in my life who like hugging and even hug them first sometimes to be polite and social but inside i hate it lol

The only other person besides Chapo the past 2 years i let touch me anywhere close to sexually was an ex of mine but I didn't even let it escalate to oral

The totally honest deep inner truth in me is that I hate being human, and I hate all of humanity and I guess thats how I ended up here on sociopath community and allowed my suicidal urges to finally successfully kill me because im basically dead now, spiritually emotionally physically. My heart longs for the freedom of death more than any other desire and yet im apparently still not quite ready and I'm not sure whats stopping me. It just doesn't feel like the "right time" quite yet and I do have an adorable small little kitty laying on me purring right now, and people in my life I know will be very upset by me passing, so that too

Slay said: 

FOTS said: 

I have all the benefits of having a gf in the dreamworld without the cons of having one in real life. Bc my dreams are as realistic as reality. No nagging, no spending money, no being social obligated to someone

 

 I don't see "can't have sex" listed as a con. If you don't care about that yet still find benefit in an imaginary gf then you crave some form of connection and aren't as detached as you think you are - you're just coping as best you can.

You're dealing with what you want but don't have with fantasy and lying to yourself instead of dealing with your problems that hinder your personal satisfaction. 

This is exactly what Aub does so I find the irony here funny. 

 

 I mean yeah when you think about it like that there's some funny irony to it

But the lucid dreaming stuff is more of a joke. The only thing getting in the way of me having a gf is that I haven't left my house in a month and that I dont want one. But I dream about it enough to make me think that at some evolutionary level my lack of interaction is having me react with dreams

FOTS said: 

Slay said: 

FOTS said: 

I have all the benefits of having a gf in the dreamworld without the cons of having one in real life. Bc my dreams are as realistic as reality. No nagging, no spending money, no being social obligated to someone

 

 I don't see "can't have sex" listed as a con. If you don't care about that yet still find benefit in an imaginary gf then you crave some form of connection and aren't as detached as you think you are - you're just coping as best you can.

You're dealing with what you want but don't have with fantasy and lying to yourself instead of dealing with your problems that hinder your personal satisfaction. 

This is exactly what Aub does so I find the irony here funny. 

 

 I mean yeah when you think about it like that there's some funny irony to it

But the lucid dreaming stuff is more of a joke. The only thing getting in the way of me having a gf is that I haven't left my house in a month and that I dont want one. But I dream about it enough to make me think that at some evolutionary level my lack of interaction is having me react with dreams

Have you ever thought that telling yourself that you "didn't want it anyway" is a cope? 

Look at others on this forum that claim it and ask yourself the legitimacy of that phrase. 

dicksmoker said: 

men have to want to want to fuck you and you to be attractive in order to be a slut

Completely untrue. 

If anything, it's the ones who see themselves deep down as undesirable who "try harder".