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I'm going to do beautiful different this time tho. I'm going to do beautiful as a witch/sorceress 

being a witch has brought out the human beauty in me, and connected me with nature and my ancestors. This change in mindset is definitely the result of my witchcraft practices and I am going to give credit where credit is due

Witchcraft is powerful my peeps

There have been 2 sides of me for as long as I can remember, the side of me that hated myself and my dependence on others and rules and wanted to destroy myself, and the side of me that wanted to people please and fit in and have social connections

There has been a war in me with these 2 sides back and forth and for a few years now the former side was winning and getting stronger and stronger 

Now the latter side is in control and taking over and thank fuck because I was about to die I could feel it, this ominous feeling that I was going to accidentally put myself in a fatal situation or purposefully commit suicide

im okay now and the paranoia and darkness are fading into distant memories 

Thank you Cain for being an inspiration, you made it so clear to me where my demons were leading me

TC tried but he couldnt persuade me, it took someone pointing out the darkest and ugliest aspects of me and my personality to really make it clear that I didnt want what i thought I wanted

You were wrong that I was never going to change and reverse that path tho, and that is just as much of a surprise to me as it is to anyone because I thought I wanted to destroy myself

prettiestofflowers said: 

Thank you Cain for being an inspiration, you made it so clear to me where my demons were leading me

TC tried but he couldnt persuade me, it took someone pointing out the darkest and ugliest aspects of me and my personality to really make it clear that I didnt want what i thought I wanted

Emotional Masochism strikes again. 

Turncoat said: 

prettiestofflowers said: 

Thank you Cain for being an inspiration, you made it so clear to me where my demons were leading me

TC tried but he couldnt persuade me, it took someone pointing out the darkest and ugliest aspects of me and my personality to really make it clear that I didnt want what i thought I wanted

Emotional Masochism strikes again. 

 Lack understanding, you do

It's that, autistic midgets have such low quality of life and are so hateful that there is something about them pointing out ways in which you could possibly be anything like an autistic midget inspires you to not ever act like that, ever again

And weirdly enough I was acting a little bit like an autistic midget, as well as suicidal and self-hating the way Cain does and I realized I dont want to be like that 

Just saying, your compliment towards him was over how him being blatantly insulting towards you is what you needed. 

All that tells me is that I need to try to be less nice and gentle when it comes to you or else you'll just do terrible things to yourself.