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prettiestofflowers said: 

because now I'm thinking about what if I started practicing back when I was 14 and the really bad depression started 

It'd probably be reflecting the essence of shows like Charmed and Buffy. 

Learning Wicca from the internet now is not the same as what it used to be. I suspect the harmonious daydream culture that's hit groups such as furries, bronies, and LARPers has tainted e-Wicca culture further from the source. 

I had internet access and my own laptop. I knew about witchcraft but I was in a private Christian school at the time and heavy Christian upbringing

Oh shit right you were in a Christian school. You'd probably be less shackled by classic Christian notions of safety and potentially more open minded, especially if you were following a counter-Christian faith within Christianity. 

You'd probably have worn tons of dark makeup and shit. Did you ever see the South Park episode about "Vampire Kids", or the goth kid episodes in general? I'm sorry to say it'd likely be an improvement compared to Jesus studies. 

goddamnit. or damngodit lol my life probably could have been so much better. Maybe. its impossible to truly know. Maybe I wasn't ready to be initiated into witchcraft back then

You'd have made every single choice in your life from then to now differently, and likely wouldn't recognize that person as yourself beyond genetic factors. Your history over that span of years would have led you to very different places, even within your presence of agorophobia. 

You'd likely still be a homebody who's afraid of people, but how and why you'd be doing it wouldn't be the same, and what you'd do about it, within it, would also show differences. You'd trivially be accomplishing about just as much as you are now, but how you'd feel about it'd probably be different. 

but I can't help but think what a difference it would have made, and how maybe I would have been able to have a successful career and husband and kids by now

I kinda doubt that faith is to blame here. 

but maybe not. There are limits to witchcraft like you can't do the impossible. You can do a lot of things that most people think would be impossible, but you can't actually change what is impossible to change

What sorts of improbable things, like lifting a car? 

some of your Life in inescapably predetermined.

What parts aren't though? 

I just wish maybe I could have avoided destroying myself so severely but idk if I could have. I think it was meant to happen but what if it was avoidable 

Why do you keep talking like it's too late? 

For real, if you actually desired to fix this, you'd he hurting yourself with exposure therapy or something. 

It doesn't matter tho I have to deal with my present and future right now. Unless I can spellwork to go back in time jk but my mind is definitely a lot more open to what is possible with witchcraft based on some recent experiences and revelations ive had 

I suppose you could always try to set the stage for your next incarnation. 

You claimed to have picked becoming a human as a choice, what species would you choose on the next run? 

The grass is always greener on the other side. I have an ability to be happy no matter what which includes carrying a ton of darkness and fear in my psyche and still being able to stay positive. it's kind of incredible. I could probably find a way to be happy and peaceful even if I was being physically tortured and beat up and murdered.....lol

Why not learn to be less weighed down by your own negativity, instead of dosing yourself with desperate positivism? 

If you could learn to tolerate your own issues instead of thinking they all need bandages, it won't be gone but it'd be that much lighter and quieter on your spirit, whereas bandages are how you gain addictions. 

Positive things come much more naturally to those not distracted by the weight of their own burdens. Once you can lift that, all that's left is to observe the positive unhindered.