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Blanc said: 

Childhood... is recovery from a shitty childhood and trauma truly possible? 

Yeah, you just like the pity and attention.

I... don’t know anymore. I think I’ll be like this forever which is a) super fun b) not how i thought my life was going to go by that’s fine c) scary d) help 

so yeah um, can i please, i dont know if there is a cure 

there is drugs, but, cure? No. 

I sit in a therapist office and tell them about the issues I’m facing, then i go home and face them. And it makes things debilitatingly hard. 

I’m tired and havfe a head ache so. I dont care rn 

but seriously, I’m sick forever. Like I’m going to have ptsd forever. 

And no one, can even seem to empathize. I’m not *entitled* to that but, it’s scary that no one gets it or understands what I’m talking about. 

Not special snowflake syndrome, I’m talking about just anxiety and dissociation and suicide on a level thats scary 

and basically mental illness sucks and 

I’m too depressed to go to work tomorrow and want to throw in the towel 

and i want to, take drugs because its the only thing that helps the above mentioned issues most immediately 

talking to people helps but, only if they’re understanding and 

lately ii have no one so thats fun 

I’m also worn down because i haven’t slept in 48 hours and I’ve been “working very hard” For a while now and i had people stay at me house and they made a mess and i have to clean it up but 

that’s beside the point um 

i just..... i realize that these issues i thought would of been resolved by now are still persisting soooooo I’m soooooo like, feeling fatalistic about that but, hey..... 

just being honest about what i feel about it. What i feel. Not what I’m going to do. Not what i think. 

Just, expressing what i feel. 

Please, spare your comments. 

 If you don't want people commenting maybe don't post to a forum.

If you're suicidal then get committed for your own safety. Stop posting about it on a forum where nobody actively cares about your past bullshit. Most of the people here have had shitty childhoods and you seem to want to relive yours(if they aren't total fabrications) every fucken day and then you get ass heated because no one here pities you. Put your shit on Instagram and Facebook and out your parents to their friends and family if you want other people's pity and stop taking their money. 

You could have gone no contact by now but you chose to live this way. 

I was just kind of down yesterday and also exhausted, I'm doing a little better today... um. 

sorry I just, I'm too tired form work right now to even think about all that other stuff rn, I need a break from thinking. I'll, get back to it another time