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My ex's mom. While packing this week I've found a lot of clothes she bought me. I never bought myself any new clothes when I was doing drugs. She didn't know about the drug abuse until the end, but she knew I was struggling financially and she worked at a clothing outlit so she would buy items in my size when they went on clearance. She was always super nice and I really respect her and am thankful for her. Things did not end well with my ex and I think she was hopeful we would get back together but we were really toxic together.
Part of me wants to reach out to this person who was so kind and supportive for me when I was at a really rough point in my life and I want to let her know I'm drug free and doing well in Uni now, but I don't want to open that whole can of worms by contacting a member of my ex's family.

I stole my ex's brother's copy of Fight Club when we lived together. Sometimes I think about mailing it to her with a note letting her know how I'm doing, and asking her to give it back for me.

PalePeach said: 

My ex's mom. While packing this week I've found a lot of clothes she bought me. I never bought myself any new clothes when I was doing drugs. She didn't know about the drug abuse until the end, but she knew I was struggling financially and she worked at a clothing outlit so she would buy items in my size when they went on clearance. She was always super nice and I really respect her and am thankful for her. Things did not end well with my ex and I think she was hopeful we would get back together but we were really toxic together.
Part of me wants to reach out to this person who was so kind and supportive for me when I was at a really rough point in my life and I want to let her know I'm drug free and doing well in Uni now, but I don't want to open that whole can of worms by contacting a member of my ex's family.

I stole my ex's brother's copy of Fight Club when we lived together. Sometimes I think about mailing it to her with a note letting her know how I'm doing, and asking her to give it back for me.

 That's touching

It's an empty world, and finding people who actually care about you is rare

I think about contacting my best friend from HS all the time.  But I cut him out in a really nasty way.  Unfortunately, anyone im close to I end up harming.  The only thing keeping me from contacting him is that he was too different from me.  I had to keep my mouth shut from any intelligent conversation.  It was only fart jokes with him.  But i could tell he cared about me.  I always felt bad because Im incapable of caring for anyone else.  I wish i could learn to somehow care for someone, maybe then I wont feel the need to walk a barren path

I actually did do this twice and it was a shitty experience.

For the first one, I went on a man-hunt for kids I cared about from my school. Tracked them down and re-connected because there were things I needed to do to put my past at a rest.

Some were the same and others changed.

I felt better but it was also kinda painful to see how some of them changed. I knew shouldn't have but did anyway because I felt I needed it.

Aeonian Queen said: 

I actually did do this twice and it was a shitty experience.

For the first one, I went on a man-hunt for kids I cared about from my school. Tracked them down and re-connected because there were things I needed to do to put my past at a rest.

Some were the same and others changed.

I felt better but it was also kinda painful to see how some of them changed. I knew shouldn't have but did anyway because I felt I needed it.

 It could have been painful for them if you also changed

Or would you say that you're the same and they're the ones that have changed

FOTS said: 

Aeonian Queen said: 

I actually did do this twice and it was a shitty experience.

For the first one, I went on a man-hunt for kids I cared about from my school. Tracked them down and re-connected because there were things I needed to do to put my past at a rest.

Some were the same and others changed.

I felt better but it was also kinda painful to see how some of them changed. I knew shouldn't have but did anyway because I felt I needed it.

 It could have been painful for them if you also changed

Or would you say that you're the same and they're the ones that have changed

 I've changed apearance-wise. I look alot different from back then (apparently in a good way). And I'm less lost, I suppose. But nothing else noticeable has changed about me.

I had a friend in the first grade. Her and I would go out at recess and collect rocks, storing them in gallon zip bags. We could only ever hang out at school. I didn't know those 15min breaks would be the best memories of my past. I wonder how she is doing. She was very shy and quiet. Spoke with a slight lisp. I moved schools after second grade and never saw her again.