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Turncoat said: 

Not even Interpersonal, Musical, or Existential? 

 Have you been acting different or is it just me? Maybe the pfp is doing things to me

Slay said: 

Turncoat said: 

Not even Interpersonal, Musical, or Existential? 

Have you been acting different or is it just me?

If I'm acting differently then it's over things I'm not directly noticing. 

Maybe the pfp is doing things to me

It does seem to be a little disarming, so far anyway. 

Perhaps I'm paying more attention because I never used to read your posts lmao 

*I notice more femininity

Turncoat said: 

Blanc said: 

It was preparing us and our strengths for the real world as they would be exercised in our actual lives, and who we would become in todays world. 

And yet...

 I took a detour by studying in Mexico and being “free spirited” for a while traveling in Europe but then I went to a decent university. I was offered to study at a music conservatory in New York but I didn’t go because I didn’t want to write music for a living and then starve, and I had a bad taste in my mouth at the time with some experiences I had previously with the, “technical learning” side of music and music theory. 

The dean of the school for music of a local university took notice of my music through a composers festival I submitted to and he had me study under him and a student of his who got into Juliard trained me technically. He filmed our sessions which was odd, saying he was doing a study on the types of people who just write music naturally from the time they’re born. I started when I was 4. 

It was all very, strict and, I had similar experiences with many other musical teachers and schools and classes etc etc, I dunno I just had so many poor experiences in the world of music before I was even 18 that I knew it just was going to suck ass to be trapped in NY alone in some room huddling over black and white notes on a page all day. I thought I might go insane and get really depressed and kill my self even. 

I was actually interested in biology and medicine so yeah I started working away at that, and then my life exploded and my parents disowned me and I was homeless. So then I had to work my ass off to get a scholarship to a university near my grandmother and begged her to take me in. She would only take me in under several conditions but the main one being that I was going to school there in her state. I had no other options essentially (that weren’t completely shit) so that was realistically my only shot at a halfway decent future at the time. 

So I got into the pre-med program on scholarship and had loads of fun studying bio-chem and then after a while I started falling apart mentally, and after two years I went home and wound up getting stuck there. 

I was supposed to only go home for a summer and try to make things right with my family but we got no where and the stress and arguments just pushed me to my limit. I had a mental breakdown and burn out, and whatever. Depression, blah blah blah. I let it all go untreated for far too long and it caught up with me. 

So then I decided to take some time off and get my head right. 

And My therapist told me to stop trying to make amends or caring about your parents and what they think of you like, to just leave it behind make peace with it and just move out, and move on. This process was more difficult to be done than said and emotionally it probably took about a year, year and a half to fully accept and get over some things between me and my parents. 

And then I had mental health and recovery start being more the center of my life for a while, I tried to go back to school and do more bio-chem and while I made It through it was really tough still, because of the depression bouts and having dissociation in the middle of class and, still a lot of emotional and mental problems going on thar hadn’t been resolved. I wasn’t peak functional let’s put it that way lol. 

So I did some life guarding and some phlebotomy for a year or so and then I figured maybe I would do surgical tech because hey, good money, same field that I like, surgery is fun I like it. Shadowed some docs and did volunteer work in hospitals and clinics. Realized I had good hands for it. 

So thar was positive and I got accepted into a surgical program. 

Also the whole point of alll these jobs I’ve taken on is so I can pay for a place to live, because being at home is super mentally toxic for me. And even my therapist was like you gotta get out of there if you wanna make any progress. And I’m like I know lol. 

It’s for my mental health. But yeah so that’s just reality. 

But lately my parents are talking about that they’re willing to pay for me a place to live if I finish my bio-chem here at a nice university and they’ll also get me the car I wanted, because I told them I can’t go to med school right away I have to do surgical tech if I’m gonna have a car and a place to live. 

And they’re like oh well cover that just focus on the pre-med and do surgical training later if you still want to. My mom thinks I should do something like radiology or anesthesiology and make the big bucks. She probably has a point, although I am interested in other areas as well. 

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Blanc said: 

Oh okay so I went to a school for gifted kids that rarely accepts new entries, and only had a graduating class of 4 people because my IQ is low? 

 

I went through a series of special tests. At first I was called to the office on a random Tuesday morning, I thought I was in trouble. They had me instead take a strange test that seemed to be testing my cognitive reasoning skills and speed more so than a propensity for anything else. The room was quiet and no one told me what the test was for, they judt said I had been selected to do testing and only a few students from each grade get selected. 

I was selected based on I guess my GPA performance as well as a few tests that were administered to all students in the grade through out the first semester. We were told it was a curriculum success assessment of sorts. But I knew better because the tests were abstract. One of them had me drawing something, another listing all the strange things you can create out of a few random house hold objects. 

 

So anyway I took the test in front of a computer, and then I got called back in again shortly after that, and this time there were fewer students in the room. I glanced at a woman watching us and her clipboard had ten names, one of them was mine. I realized they were wittling us down. I thought maybe there was a competition so I tried to be as fast as possible. It was fun like a game. 

And after one more test I was told that myself and two others had scored the highest on these series of tests in all areas, and were talked to about entering gifted programs outside this school, as they don’t think that the education they offered here would be enough for us. 

And I thought no shit, I could of told you that. I’d been bored since, always. By school. They tried moving me up a grade and, all honors and AP classes and, taking higher level things but, nothing sufficed to cure the insane boredom I felt with the educational system. 

I submitted an application to a gifted school they recommended for me and I was really happy to leave where I was at so, I agreed for testing and interview. They went over awards I had won and involvements I had going on as well as just talking about my life and my thoughts. They asked me strange theoretical questions that required quick problem solving but were open ended. No multiple choice and it was more like a conversation. At the end of every answer there was, “why.”

 

And someone rapidly recording what I said with pen and paper, jotting down notes about our conversations and, looking over all my submitted test scores. 

And then they had me take more tests (hurray) 

 

that were like word problems that turned into equations or vs, and other strange problem solving. As well as a lot of stuff that is similar to the structure of an SAT but the questions were definitely more challenging and even designed to trick you. There was also far more open ended questions and written portions, which I enjoyed. 

Then I was accepted into the school and it was fun. We basically just, had a conversation all day long about various topics in history, politics and current events going on in the world. Problem solving problems in the world, pertaining to social problems or the environment, or engineering type of solutions. A lot of creativity was embraced and we bounced off of each other. 

each of us already had our own areas of expertise in a way, one was going to be an author, the other a historian, the other a politician, and myself being more of a science perspective on things. So we brought new information to the table to talk about amongst ourselves, the author was always reciting and referencing literary works and quoting authors, etc. 

 

There was one girl in the grade below me who was a math wizard. So it was a wide array of gifts. 

We went over at the beginning of the year what areas we were gifted in and how we wanted the structure of the class to be. Did we want the lights off? Did we want to go outside on wednesdays? What order should we have. Do we want tests or projects, do we prefer to work alone? Read in class, or at home. 

Most of had iadetic or photographic memories, there was a boy not in my grade who was extremely musically gifted and they allowed him to focus on that. His primary goal was entering a conservatory. 

It was just a more intense style of learning where we’re not waiting for anyone to get it or learn it or catch up but rather we just instantly got it and could talk about it and move forward with it, implementing the j formation and drawing inference between all of it to create solutions to problems creatively. 

It was preparing us and our strengths for the real world as they would be exercised in our actual lives, and who we would become in todays world. 

 

 LMAO i think u got put in a retard school but ur dumb enough to believe that 'special' actually meant special. this is the most likely explanation cos ur a fuckin retard.

Blanc said: 

Oh okay so I went to a school for gifted kids that rarely accepts new entries, and only had a graduating class of 4 people because my IQ is low? 

 

I went through a series of special tests. At first I was called to the office on a random Tuesday morning, I thought I was in trouble. They had me instead take a strange test that seemed to be testing my cognitive reasoning skills and speed more so than a propensity for anything else. The room was quiet and no one told me what the test was for, they judt said I had been selected to do testing and only a few students from each grade get selected. 

I was selected based on I guess my GPA performance as well as a few tests that were administered to all students in the grade through out the first semester. We were told it was a curriculum success assessment of sorts. But I knew better because the tests were abstract. One of them had me drawing something, another listing all the strange things you can create out of a few random house hold objects. 

 

So anyway I took the test in front of a computer, and then I got called back in again shortly after that, and this time there were fewer students in the room. I glanced at a woman watching us and her clipboard had ten names, one of them was mine. I realized they were wittling us down. I thought maybe there was a competition so I tried to be as fast as possible. It was fun like a game. 

And after one more test I was told that myself and two others had scored the highest on these series of tests in all areas, and were talked to about entering gifted programs outside this school, as they don’t think that the education they offered here would be enough for us. 

And I thought no shit, I could of told you that. I’d been bored since, always. By school. They tried moving me up a grade and, all honors and AP classes and, taking higher level things but, nothing sufficed to cure the insane boredom I felt with the educational system. 

I submitted an application to a gifted school they recommended for me and I was really happy to leave where I was at so, I agreed for testing and interview. They went over awards I had won and involvements I had going on as well as just talking about my life and my thoughts. They asked me strange theoretical questions that required quick problem solving but were open ended. No multiple choice and it was more like a conversation. At the end of every answer there was, “why.”

 

And someone rapidly recording what I said with pen and paper, jotting down notes about our conversations and, looking over all my submitted test scores. 

And then they had me take more tests (hurray) 

 

that were like word problems that turned into equations or vs, and other strange problem solving. As well as a lot of stuff that is similar to the structure of an SAT but the questions were definitely more challenging and even designed to trick you. There was also far more open ended questions and written portions, which I enjoyed. 

Then I was accepted into the school and it was fun. We basically just, had a conversation all day long about various topics in history, politics and current events going on in the world. Problem solving problems in the world, pertaining to social problems or the environment, or engineering type of solutions. A lot of creativity was embraced and we bounced off of each other. 

each of us already had our own areas of expertise in a way, one was going to be an author, the other a historian, the other a politician, and myself being more of a science perspective on things. So we brought new information to the table to talk about amongst ourselves, the author was always reciting and referencing literary works and quoting authors, etc. 

 

There was one girl in the grade below me who was a math wizard. So it was a wide array of gifts. 

We went over at the beginning of the year what areas we were gifted in and how we wanted the structure of the class to be. Did we want the lights off? Did we want to go outside on wednesdays? What order should we have. Do we want tests or projects, do we prefer to work alone? Read in class, or at home. 

Most of had iadetic or photographic memories, there was a boy not in my grade who was extremely musically gifted and they allowed him to focus on that. His primary goal was entering a conservatory. 

It was just a more intense style of learning where we’re not waiting for anyone to get it or learn it or catch up but rather we just instantly got it and could talk about it and move forward with it, implementing the j formation and drawing inference between all of it to create solutions to problems creatively. 

It was preparing us and our strengths for the real world as they would be exercised in our actual lives, and who we would become in todays world. 

 

 tl;dr