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1 votes RE: Rage and betrayal
FOTS said: 

Though in my new form, I forgave the person, there was a person I was close to, she was nice. I met her over discord, and I would vent to her my issues because back then I was extremely emotionally unstable with thoughts of suicide. I fell in love with her, but in the end, she had lied to me about her life to try to get closer to me, and had a plan to make me commit suicide, after that, I wanted to destroy her, but all that is over. 

 I can relate to the first part of that. 

I'm glad that's over for you and you put it behind you.

 Stop trying to bring happiness into sc, rip him apart with psychoanalysis and play to his faults

She's softening his guard, let her do her thing. 

 I already moved on from such a thing, I was weaker in my previous version. The girl however, I shouldn't have forgiven them, because of another thing that ties her in it a few months back. Though, that's a different thing not related to this. 

 Sounded like you forgave her and then cut her out.

Now it sounds like you haven't.

 I cut her out of my life, until I found out she had ties to a guy I knew that turned out to be a pedophile and she was part of his group. 

Oh, hm. I see now. 

Well forgiving what she did to you is healthy.

 Hating her for this doesn't mean you should unforgive (if that's what you did).

 Well, I forgave her because the things she did to me don't necessarily bother me, they did when I was still suicidal and depressed, but then when I changed into what I am now, I was indifferent towards it. What would make me want to harm her is the fact that she was affiliated with a group of pedophiles. 

I would say I am mostly an indifferent person, I think I do have a morality of sorts. 

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1 votes RE: Rage and betrayal

Yeah, a few times. I tend to move past things pretty quickly, but the anger at the time is explosive. I've broken furniture from kicking things a few times, I'm actually a lot better about that now. Can walk away from an argument, usually I'm the calm one anymore. Can name one example:

Best friend from age 16 onward, when we were 25, 26? He decided to tell everyone at his mom's bar that I was taking tranquilizers, because apparently I took some and had a few beers, harassed some people on golf carts being boomers. Called a girl a dumb thot (she was), but in other words that I really don't remember. Apparently that was a good enough reason to slander me to the city I was in. I never backstabbed him when he was drunk breaking 20 Gamecube games of an intoxicated friend, and shoving the disc fragments down a heater vent. Massive disappointment. But I don't need revenge, he can just go fuck himself.

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0 votes RE: Rage and betrayal

Was there a time in your life that made you have those feelings?

What was it? Have the feelings faded now that you look back at that memory, or do they echo?

 My dad 

 

he beat me senseless 

 

the feelings of resentment linger 

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