Redundancy and mental blocks - 1 - Sociopath Community

So my therapist told me that when you are consuming or repeating the same material over and over again it’s a sign the person is trying to cope with a mental block

so yeah that explains why for many years I wrote about the same things. And before I was on my meds it would run through my head constantly, like the same thoughts on a tape or a loop just repeating and repeating.

and when I was going through my worst time mentally I will read the same books over and over again.

Like my sophomore year of college I read the story called Johnny panic and the bible of dreams repeatedly. I was so obsessed with it... it was weird. I would like take it everywhere with me too when I traveled around Europe and Mexico.

but yeah I’ve done this with several books... when I was at my worst mental place I read Ayn Rand’s the fountainhead in the psych ward, over and over. And I would start it over so many times lol

it was obsession to the point that I was taking it around everywhere with me whilst walking around the ward and also fell asleep reading it with it by my head every night.

Looking back on it this is odd.

but whenever I feel scared, I will read these books. Like on a plane or, in the middle of a really bad storm and the power went out.

it’s how I cope with panic or being unable to sleep.

lately I’ve been reading the big fix... but not over and over but. That’s my latest obsession.

Blanc said:
So my therapist told me that when you are consuming or repeating the same material over and over again it’s a sign the person is trying to cope with a mental block

It's classic bedrock status, yeah. If they're short circuited to the point of repeating one statement sternly, they have little else left of them at that point.

It's also how words can become a mantra, and not all mantras are healthy.

so yeah that explains why for many years I wrote about the same things. And before I was on my meds it would run through my head constantly, like the same thoughts on a tape or a loop just repeating and repeating.

Racing thoughts can also be somewhat amnesic in that more is going on than you can hold onto or retain, so there's bound to be loops of ideas within them.

I usually go back to my older writings to learn my own ideas after the fact.

and when I was going through my worst time mentally I will read the same books over and over again.

This sounds more like comfort zone patterns.

It's actually pretty common.